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So Many Thoughts

I have so many things spinning around in my head.

Some times it is so confusing in there. There are so many stories floating around at times. It’s difficult to focus on just one. So right now I’m working on a couple of things. First edit of book two is a current big red mess. Well the first 100 pages at any rate.

My other project I’ve not touched whilst I’ve been on leave. Instead I’ve worked on knitting and sewing projects. Creative is creative after all. I quite like doing creative things with my hands there is something incredibly satisfying in it. It is just something I don’t do very often anymore as I have so many things going on.

It can be a very full schedule when you’re a wife, mother, full time employee and a writer. Oh there is also my convention habit.

I love my life, mostly. I guess I just wish things would happen faster. I wish I was already published, I wish certain other things had gone my way and a few other things were different. Things that I don’t need the world to know but that would make my life a little easier.

Part of the problem with the internet is it is so easy to over share. I could complain about the things that have gone wrong, the problems I have, but ultimately what would be the point? Complaining online won’t solve my problems. It may be cathartic in the moment but what can it possibly achieve? It won’t fix anything, it won’t make anything go away. I don’t understand why people do it.

Whining doesn’t help in anyway. You know what does help? Getting on with life. Doing what you are good at. Fix your sights on the goal, pick yourself up out of your pity party and put one foot in front of the other. That is how you get to where you want to be.

Life for most of us is not about the quick fix, it is about the long journey. Sure there are lucky people in life, those for whom things come easy. For the rest of us we work at it. We take one step after another, stopping to recharge, refocus and step again towards that goal we hold so dear.

Scattered Thoughts

Boy these last 12 weeks have been trying. The study component for my new job has been at times draining, frustrating and just plain puzzling.

Then there was the play which finished last weekend. I really sighed with relief once the last show was over. It was a good experience but truthfully maybe it was a bit much to take on during the study, then again maybe it was a good thing to get out to force myself to be creative.

Now I have a little time. I only have two weeks of study left, well a day less than that and then I start the 6 mths on the job stuff. That will be full of it’s own challenges of that I have no doubt but I will have some more time to do the things I want – like write.

Of course I suddenly realised that I have to use a writers mentor thingie that my lovely hubby got me for christmas last year before it runs out. Arrrgh!!!

The complete structural rewrite hasn’t come anywhere near as far as I had hoped. I think though it will be a good thing and I think the timing will turn out to be perfect because I have finished the school part of things and will be able to leave work at work from now on. When you are studying and getting assessed/ tested you can’t leave your work behind, it has to come home with you. Believe me I am glad to be leaving that. It has crimped not only my writing but also my reading. Fortunately my main review blog hasn’t really suffered.

I actually finished two books this week and by the time tomorrow is over that number will be three – this is a huge thing and for some reason I feel really good about this, more at ease with things and I think, when I actually do think about it, that I feel a bit more balanced.

It is hard to believe that this time last year I was in the midst of NaNoWriMo, something I totally couldn’t have tackled this year. It was such an intense creative period for me. Now it is a good day if I get 50 words on paper that don’t have something to do with legislation or the like.

I am hoping that the forced time away will mean once I settle into the job and my shift roster that the creative will kick in and things will flow insanely.

Yeah I know but a girl can always hope can’t she?